Tali in Toronto

Save me

So, as you guys all know, I was laid off. I won't go into details about that. But I will say it was really hard to take and I spent a lot of time crying. Ultimately, my biggest problem is that I invest so much of myself in my work that it is so hard not to take this all as a personal failure. It is a struggle. And then the second thing I need to figure out is what to do next. I find I define myself by my job. It is a big part of who I am. Career is important to me. So right now, I wonder what that definition is. Who am i exactly and what path am I supposed to go down?

It is scary. I'm 30 and jobless and significant otherless. What does that say about me? And the fact that I'm so much more stressed about not having a job than not hacing a man. What does that say about me?

I guess it says I have MUCH to think about right now. I have a lot I need to figure out, about what I want to do and who I want to be when I grow up.

All I know is that ultimately, I want to continue to be someone I can continue to be proud of. Underneath it all, I am happy with the person I've become and wouldn't sacrifice that for the world.
Unfortunately, when things feel crappy, cynicism and self-doubt creep in and drive you crazy so right now I'm in a constant state of reminding myself that all is good.

But, I'm in Montreal, sitting beside my sister and my brother, hanging out with good family and friends. And that makes it easier to remember how lucky I am.

OMG! A few days without a job and I'm turning into a total sap!!!SAVE ME! IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE!
:)

We are watching "Rock & Rule". I loved this movie when it came out way back when and I was so excited when it was released on DVD last month. I LOVE it. Has anyone out there heard of it? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?

posted by TF @ 6:41 PM