I need to make up a song about how happy a sunny Friday makes me. And then sing it. And dance around the office while I do so everyone shares in my happiness.
Nothing new to report. I'm dying to get outside and relax in the sun. Of course, it is sunny today and supposed to rain the rest of the weekend. Yay.
My fave author (and mother) has finally posted a blog. Check it out: http://susan36.blogspot.com/
Have a good weekend!
posted by TF @ 11:13 AM
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This is a poem for Serge
Serge was my when I was back in QC
He never judged me for being a little loose-y
I loved him lots, and thought it was forever
He came to Toronto and called me never.
I cried
I cried
I...*sob*....cried.
That is the end of the jexish guilt component of this blog. Check out his blog at: http://splurge.blogs.com/impetuous_thoughts/
posted by TF @ 12:37 PM
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Well good day to you.
Lots of activities to talk about.
The first being..I forgot to share my story of the delish sandwich. Some riend from here (work) invited me out for vietnamese for lunch. Unfortunately the place was closed (and on it's a dore a big - No Live Animals Allowed Inside" sign. I don't know what that means..but EW!) SO we went across the street to a little place called the Beaver Cafe. When there I ahd the BEST sandwich - tuna, avocado, and swiss on a dark molasses bread wit ha salad on the side. It was YUM. This tiny little place serves everything with a side of scrambled eggs (ok..not EVERYTHING). Anyhow, it was cute. So if you are ever in the Queen/Dufferen area. Check it out. It is v.cute.
Ok....last night I went to see Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. I thought it was v.cute. I think I appreciated it more having read the book. I'm hearing a lot of criticism..people didn't like it..especially hardcore book fans. I thought it was really fun. The thing book fans have to realize is the movie will NEVER be as good as your imagination. It will never live up to that hype. It is a North Americanized, slightly dumbed down version of a book that it already off the wall to begin with. How can you perfectly bring that to the big screen? It just wouldn't work. But I can appreciate the effort and the humor they kept in there. So, poo on all you naysayers.Stop looking for perfection in an industry where people like Arnold Schwartzenegger can star as a genius scientist having a baby while dating Emma Thompson - having her baby. I mean COME ON! Do you know some people called it H2G2? People are weird. It's official.
That is it. It is still grey and ugly outside and I hate it. It is making me sleepy. So so sleepy.
posted by TF @ 12:22 PM
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Something has happened to me since my arrival in Toronto. Actually, two things.
1. I have developped a stutter. It is clearly a nerve related things because I'm perpetually on edge in this city. It is like I am completely unable to speak. I don't like it and don't get it. I need a course in chilling out I think or to take up alcoholism as a hobby. Then at least I have a good reason for not being able to speak.
2. I can't seem to talk down a normal city block without tripping and near falling. It is constant and I have a hard time not laughin hysterically - half out of embarassment and half because I find myself absolutely hilarious. I don't know what is wrong with me or what is my coordination problem. But oh how funny it is. I'm waiting until the day I actually fall and hurt myself.
I'm planning my birthday outing and i have no idea what to do.
Dinner at Sushi on Bloor..but then I want to find a place to go to. I would like it in my hood..so I'm near home when I want to leave..don't have to confront or deal with my taxi issue or worry about making the last subway. But i can find anywhere in my hood. HELP ME!
How early is too early to be planning this (the outing will be the 28th of May)?
Any advice from you vetran Toronto-ites?
posted by TF @ 8:17 AM
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I'm having so much trouble sleeping and I don't know why. I'm tired yet my mind is in over-drive.
Constantly moving and thinking and figuring things out.
I feel like I need a hobby. Something outside of work that I am passionate about. I just can't find it.
Any suggestions?
I'm blah so this is short.
The end.
posted by TF @ 1:05 PM
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Hello everyone and for my jewish friends...HAPPY PASSOVER! Sick of matzoh yet?
Nothing to report. I spent the weekend in Montreal and it was SO nice to see everyone. It is hard not to....how do I describe it...glorify Montreal after I go to visit. I have to remember that I wasn't always so thrilled when I live there. But when I got home for the weekends I feel so surrounded by people i love. It is such a nice feeling. Even just being at home with the family. I miss that. It is the one thing i am missing in Toronto. That feeling where I can just go to a safe place and not have to be on...not have to smile and be happy or see a silver lining..I can just veg out and that is cool. I enjoy Toronto, but i still haven't quite found my niche here and i think sometimes that leaves me feeling a little lonely. And it isn't that lonely that I can fix by calling afriend..it is that lonely that comes with a transition, when you are still figuring out your place. All part of the big adventure.
So, a recent significant other of mine...who I was dating when I moved here to Toronto, has a new girlfriend. And though I knew it wasn't the right relationship for me and i have no regrets..hearing it made me sad. I guess sthere was some secret place inside where I felt like I could always call him back if I changed my mind. I never would have. But it was nice to have that. I don't know. After all the crappy dates I've been on since I've moved and the people I've met who were not great..it is hard to look at it and not wonder if i made a mistake. Logically I know i didn't...but there is still that tug at teh heartstrings response. That moment of panic.
Tonight I'm going out for a little sushi. YAY! And a little movie watching. That goodness for MB otherwise i Would be sitting home tonight itching to get out and be busy.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not in a bad mood...more...pensive. I'm not upset or sad...just...reminded of how nice it feels when you get to a point where someplace really becomes home. I know I will get there with Toronto also. It just takes time.
I'm glad it is summer here though. I could use some sunny weekends!
posted by TF @ 11:03 AM
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Inevitably, we all meet people in our life who have the weird ability to make us feel uncomfortable in our own skin. Or question who we are.
Recently, I have been speaking with someone I met on lavalife. SOmethign about the way he reacts to me and the way he reacts to other people, makes me so on edge, I don't know how to deal with it. I haven't even met him in person and I perpetually feel like I'm always saying the wrong thing. And what bothers me most is not even that he thinks that about me - although i hate it - but that it actually REALLY bothers me. What am I so concerned with what a stranger thinks? Why does it bother me? Is it an ego thing? I don't know this guy, his opinion of me won't impact my life. but it bugs me. I have to fight any instinct to prove that I'm cool. It is so weird and twisted.
Ugh, I'm frustrated with myself right now. Annoyed with my reaction.
*sigh*
I feel like i Just want to hang out with a comfortable friend tonight and relax and I don't have that anywhere I turn. Not that I am afraid of spending time alone, I guess I just need a friend and I hate these moments when I need that and just don't have it.
Maybe it is just a reminder that, when it comes down to those tough moments, ultimately the only person we have is ourselves.
posted by TF @ 2:11 PM
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So today I went to get my new passport. I get there and first I have to wait in-line for my pre-screening, which is basically where they take a look at your forms and then decide if you are ready to get in the OTHER line to get the passport. I make it through line one in about 15 minutes and then am given my number to sit in line for another 40 minutes for them to look at my papers, charge me $87.00 and then sending me on my way basically telling me "the passport is in the mail". Or will be as of May 4th. The worst, I discovered today, is sitting there trying NOT to glare at the counter people who instead of calling up another number are gossiping with eachother and sitting back drinking their coffee. Because no one else has anywhere else to be other then sitting on those dlightful plastic chairs waiting to see A048 pop up on the screen. On the flipside, how exciting is that moment? WHen you know they are getting near you it is so exciting to watch screen. You almost want to cheer it along. Pathetic...but oh so exciting I tell ya. At least more exciting than anything else going on in that room.
Nothing else exciting going on. It is, as usual, freezing in my office.
I'm supposed to go to a launch event tonight, but right now I'm so grumpy I don't know that I will. I feel like curling up in bed and hiding from the world. Boo.
Nothing else to talk about. I'm BORING (alright, just today!)
posted by TF @ 8:23 AM
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why my blogs titles yesterday was "tattoos". Well, last night I joined Mr.MB in his excursion to get a tattoo. He got a lovely little number on his back that he designed himself and he was very brave the whole time. I only saw a couple of tears. Ok ok...I lie! He was very brave and was fine the whole time. I didn't have to carry him home or pull out the smelling salts (I had them in my bag for him).
Then I went to see Amnityville Horror. I do love the scary movies. I love that terrified anxious feeling you get in the pit of your stomach and the fear and excitement. All the while you never have to worry about anything happening to you because it is all on a big screen and totally out of reach. Of course, I have been known to go home and check all my closets before settling in and relaxing after watching one. But I do love the thrill. I'm a movie theatre thrill seeker. Go on...terrify me!
THen I went home and spent an exceptional amount of time awake talking Frank Sinatra and clogging up the web with lots of back and forth music. Gotta love the passion for the good tunes. And then I was so overtired, i couldn't sleep. I looked around and it was 2 am and I was WIDE awake.
Of course, today, I feel like a solid tonne of bricks has been dropped on my head and I wish I was at home in bed. Tonight, I'm going to bed at 8...no 7:30. Ok, 10pm.
And it is only 10:30am. Today will be a long long LONG day.
Tell me a story...anything.
posted by TF @ 7:24 AM
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So, I had a lovely weekend. A little bit of relaxing...and some time with some of my fave peopke - Cam, Kyle, MB and his lovely mother, and then shopping with the girls I love the summer shopping and I'm not even NEAR done.
Let me go in chronological order:
1. My apartment is now WIRELESS! Do i love it? That is easily the understatem,ent of the century. I FREAKIN' LOVE IT! It is awesome - just lying in bed, chatting on MSN. It is dreamy.
2. Fever Pitch - Kyle and i went to see it. It was a totally fun, light, romantic comedy (not generally my thing). Jimy Fallon was, as always, enjoyable. I think he 's cute. I'm a little bit charmed by him. I admit it. I have a crush on the romantic leading man in that movie. I'm not ashamed.
3. Shoppping. Oh how i Love it. down a size from the last time I went shopping...a new pair of shoes. And all that is JUST the beginning. Woohoo! I went to the newly additioned Yorkdale. What a crazy huge mall. I will have to take my sister and my mom next time they come into town. They will be ALL over it. Love the shopping.
That is about it I spent a fair amount of time relaxin' and enjoying the sun.
Gotta run...computer is being maintenanced! :)
posted by TF @ 6:53 AM
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Someday I feel damned if I do and damned if I don't.
But before i go into that...let's talk last night. So we went out karaoking. Turns out. I love to sing. I suck, but i love it. Also, I'm a white jewish rapper. I performed Bust A Move and oh yeah..I'm tough. I almost kept up with the entire song. That is HARD to do. Are you all impressed.
Now i'm at work and it is stressing me out. Nothing I want to talk about.
In fact, I don't think I feel like blogging at all right now.
Boo.
TGIF. That is all I have to say.
posted by TF @ 8:57 AM
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Someone, who shall remain nameless but who is always the ultimate in being prim and proper, returned home from a trip and introduced us all to his new favorite song.
It is called Ass/Titties by DJ Assault. Let me share some of the lyrics with you:
Ass and titties
ass, ass, and titties
titties titties ass
and it goes on to a rockin' dance beat.
Only the best in my world ladies and gents. Be sure to download this one. At the very least it is worth a giggle.
posted by TF @ 12:53 PM
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So, lately I've been having trouble posting to Blogger. So I've started a secondary blog. I'll update both with the same message every day (the other one has pictures though). So feel free to check things out here or at tali.blog-city.com (where you can see pictures of my new tattoo...ooooooh).
Have a good day!
posted by TF @ 8:18 AM
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Last night I went to yoga and it was a tough class. I'm DEFINITELY feeling it this morning. Which is a good thing .I have no complaints about that. I'm all over it. But my god, can those classes make you feel out of shape. Hi, my name is Tali and I'm not even a little bit flexible. More yoga classes for me I guess. OH THE HUMILIATION.
Then I had the yummiest dinner at Fresh..love those roce bowles and smoothies. DELISH! I love the rise and shine - grapefruit, orange, and strawberry. It is SO good. Yum.
Ok, you may be asking yourself who exactly I'm in love with. Well, I'll just say..this new love and I cuddled on the couch last night...and then headed to the bedroom...where I needed to charge him up for the night. OK..I ADMIT IT! There is no man in my life...there is just....my new laptop. Where is the heart emoticon when you need one. Tonight..I'm taking pictures so you can all see how pretty he is. LOVE IT!
Ok, so I Need a drastic new haircut for my birthday...suggestions? Colors..cuts...all of the above! Something fun! Ideas please...
posted by TF @ 8:12 AM
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Omg...I just wrote a HUGE post and lost it. NUTS!
So frustrating. But I'm in a pretty good mood and this isn't gonna kill it. No way jose! This is happy Tali time.
Hmmm..how can I summarize what I said:
Me=Happy
Me= loving spring and the walking all the time. It makes me feel FANTASTIC. Can't wipe the smile off my face.
Me= an awesome lunch surprise of Steph and Danielle stopping in to surprise me. It was just like being back in Montreal for an hour and it was so much fun to see them. YAY! It made me feel so good.
Me=ackward run in with DS (aka Ikea Boy) who gave me an uncomfortable hug and told me to email him. AS IF!
Me=seeing great movie about kids in horrible circumstances (Born into Brothels) and me being amazed at how resilient kids are. Also noted that when we are young, getting hurt isn't scary - physcially or emotionally. Kids can take anything. It is only as we get older that things get harder to take. A lot to be said for nature over nurture and for learned behaviors. It was a bittersweet movie that for some reason didn't make me sad for these kids...but made me happy for the ones who got out. And it was nice to see all those kids laughing and playing. It was nice.
Me= dinner last night with Jen Bauer. I love that girl. We had great Thai. DELISH!
Me= lunch today with RL. I just don't see enough of him despite the fact we live AND work so close to eachother.
Me=TWO run-ins with people on the street. I'm becoming so Toronto :)
Me= seeing Melinda and Melinda with MA tonight who I've always had a secret little crush on.
I think that was it. So much less exciting when I have to write it all in short form. But you all get the point.
How is everyone out there? Huh? Huh?
posted by TF @ 2:25 PM
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I feel like I'm on a self-inflicted roller coaster ride lately. I'm constantly going through these emotional ups and downs. Which I guess is normal.
I feel a little like I'm being played. Like his fundamental lack of ability to just be honest and talk to me about anything other then the most superficial subjects is more bothersome than anything else. Part of me wants to scream... "just tell me how you feel dammit". But i won't. I remain composed and disconnected and keep up all the indifference I can muster. I hate that I have to play a role and can't be myself right now when I talk to him. God forbid I let him see a crack in the shell. What is it they say? Never let 'em see you sweat? Well, in this case, I can't let him see that this all bothers me. If I do, I just feed into his already twisted opinion of what is going on and I just can't bring myself to do that. So, I guess that makes me as bad as him (although probably more self-aware).
*sigh*
This is all exhausting.. What a waste of time and energy.
I'm really no good with all this. And I'm saddened by the inevitable truth that we may just have to stop speaking.
See, I go between up and down constantly. Angry...sad...indifferent. I'm so weird.
Women, I think, are fighters by nature. If given proof that there is the possibility, no matter how tiny, of something great - we hold on. Maybe that is just a self-fulfilling prophesy, maybe we like the challenge, I don't know. I look back over the past 2 months and saw the possibility...the glimmer of something more than friendship. And when that disappeared, without warning, I found it hard to accept. I still find it hard to understand how one goes from hot to cold in a matter of hours. What a spectacular ability. I'm almost jealous.
I could write about this for hours. I should probably just start a diary at home so no one has to read about how crazy I am.
Then again, it probably makes anyone reading this feel more normal by comparison.
It is cold in my office. Ridiculously cold. The fact that I'm tired doesn't help.
I keep having weird dreams. I don't really remember them but i know they are weird. I should write them down the minute I wake up.
Ok, I'm going to go do some work, answer some emails, and let go of the being angry.
At least for the next hour or two
posted by TF @ 7:52 AM
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Woohoo for Fridays.
I could NOT be happier to see that it is the weekend.
I feel about a MILLION times better then I did yesterday.
It was like a night of sleep completely relaxed my mind and body and made it for easy to just get this all out of my system.
Hallelujah.
Amazing how things can seem to terrible one day and much better the next. But who knows. Maybe tomorrow I'll be back to being miserable.
Like the new pink blog? It is the spring look.
I'll start changing it seasonally. You will never know what you are going to get.
Ok, I'm off to look into getting a tattoo and then seeing Sin City with the delightful MB.
Fun!
Have a fantabulous weekend everyone.
posted by TF @ 2:11 PM
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Just a little bit of info for those who care about my life that was in Toronto and is now in San Francisco :)
PR pro/game geek/Mommy in lovely Los Angeles
